Quick Summary of the Audio (below): Meghan Williams reflects on her spiritual journey, starting from her upbringing in Christian Science, through her rebellious teenage years, and her transition to mainstream Christianity. She discusses her experiences with seeker-friendly churches, emotional abuse in a relationship, and her return to church after the relationship ended. Meghan explores the concept of deconstruction, introducing the map of consciousness and questioning the fear-based energy often prevalent in mainstream. She emphasizes the importance of love and understanding, leading to deep inner healing and meaningful relationships. Meghan concludes by affirming her spiritual beliefs and her role as a light worker, bringing love and light into the world.
Note: The statement below marks a point in time (recorded September 2024). A spiritual journey is exactly that—a journey. Beliefs are ever-evolving as new insights and revelations come, and false beliefs and distortions fall away. Please listen with gentle ears and know that this is simply an honest reflection of my path thus far. Even if you learn from me by deciding what not to do, then sharing has been beneficial. Love and light to you!
Overview
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The Early Years
Growing up in Christian Science, I remember my childhood as light energetically, and as I stepped into energy healing later in life, I noticed how many of the core principles aligned with the beliefs I was raised on, though the language differed. During my teenage years, I craved independence and pushed against the structure I’d known. I thought of it as rebellion, but in reality, it was more a quest to experience life on my terms. Looking back, I realize now that my pulling away from the spiritual was more about how faith was executed than the core beliefs themselves.
In my mid-20s, I transitioned to mainstream Christianity and joined a seeker-friendly church. This experience contrasted sharply with my childhood—bigger, louder—inviting in a different way. A few years in, I found myself backsliding, influenced perhaps by my neurodivergence including PDA tendencies (Pathological Demand Avoidance or more gently known as Persistent Demand for Autonomy). I entered a relationship with someone who turned out to be an emotionally abusive partner, where my upbringing made it difficult for me to recognize my own needs and boundaries.
Going Deeper & Getting Married
After that relationship ended, church became my sanctuary, a place where I sought safety and comfort. During this time, I began flowing more in my intuitive giftings. I experienced a voice that instructed me to call a specific man who later became my husband. A few years later, he and I moved from attending that seeker-friendly church to a charismatic one, immersing ourselves in the things of the Spirit. Our path (both in our marriage and in our faith) was far from smooth, marked by seasons of conflict and hardship, but each challenge contributed to our growth.
We explored various expressions of faith, joining a charismatic Hebrew Roots church and delving into Messianic teachings before returning to a charismatic church deeply involved in prophetic ministry. We learned so many different things along the way and specifically I learned that Spirit meets us in the ways we need—whether gentle or intense—and I began to trust the unique ways I received spiritual insight.
Unintentional Deconstruction & Blossoming
A turning point came when a friend who was deconstructing her faith introduced me to the Map of Consciousness. This tool helped me recognize how mainstream often operated from a place of fear, contrasting with the love and joy it professed. I reflected on the execution of faith and began to explore the idea of transmuting energy—shifting from fear to love and understanding.
The global events of 2020 marked another major shift. Spirit led me to explore new practices (including working with crystals), which brought profound inner healing. I found myself expanding into a space of genuine freedom, love, and peace. This shift allowed me to form deep, life-giving relationships with other women, creating a network of support and mutual growth. My husband remains within mainstream Christianity, and I honor his path even as I continue my own.
Statement of Faith & My Call
I hold a deep spirituality rooted in the belief of a Creator who is omniscient and omnipresent. I see the interconnectedness of all beings and recognize the oneness in all. This understanding guides me to approach others with compassion and understanding. I see my role as a light worker, dedicated to bringing love and light into the world and helping others connect with the things of the Spirit—truly to live in the flow. My journey, marked by evolving beliefs and moments of deep searching, reflects my commitment to living in alignment with divine love and light. And as such, love and light to you as you move along your path!
Add ons
Additional thoughts are simply that I mine spiritual truths wherever I’m led to. In conversation with me I may reference the Bible, Law of One, Bashar, and a law of attraction teacher all in one thought (or any other of a broad base of fodder for spiritual insight and inspiration). Like holding a large faceted gem in your hand and turning it this way and that to get different views, perspectives, and insights, so I do with spiritual matters. But underscoring all is Spirit’s direction. The same Spirit that has been leading me my whole life. So while I’m aware where I am at spiritually isn’t for everyone, for those who are deep seekers and are able to come along with curiosity (and not judgment) – welcome!
More on the spiritual materials and resources referenced is available here.